I ought to be ashamed of myself...

I have been walking around here with my chin buried in my chest with the blues, while the people in the poorest country in the western hemisphere suffers under the destruction of a devastating earthquake. In the town where my father was born there are maybe thousands of people right now trapped in buildings holding on for life in the dead of the night praying that they will be rescued and survive this disaster.
I know that Haitian people are very strong and have endured so many trials over the last 2 centuries but I really feel like DAMN they really can use a break! They were still trying to heal from the last series of hurricanes that hit in recent years. Also, I have always felt as if Haiti was hated by Western Civilization because of their emancipation and its ripple effect on slavery in America and the other Caribbean territories. I am not going to say that this event was caused by man but I’m not going to deny the possibility either. (I am a bit of a conspiracy theorist) I will say that I do salute the people of Haiti for their strength to endure natural and political catastrophes. I am praying for their continued strength and I am going to honor them by being strong in the midst of my own struggles.
I have sat on my ass for long enough and I know that I know better. I will be actively committing myself to relieve efforts in any way I can. I just cannot even believe how terrible I have been since this new year began sulking and crying over the wackest shit when people who had nothing lost the lil’ bit they had within minutes. I can kick myself in the ass for that level of selfishness! No more! I will be collecting items with my HS Bestie for the Red Cross and I have been encouraging folks to support Wyclef’s organization by texting the word “Yele” to 501501 to make a one time donation of $5.00.
I will be hyper extending my energy to give more of myself to help my brothers and sisters and to give more to those who are less fortunate because I can’t really begin to consider myself as being blessed if I am not going to be a blessing to others.
Aiight I’m finnah go to bed cuz I’m sleepy, my mind is blown and I am ranting… I love ya’ll…